I'll chime in a little bit here and say that there should be no stigma on seeking help or going to therapy if you need to either, I had to come to the realization this year after another failed relationship hit me really hard, the ways of my father of just pushing things aside and "being a man" are not healthy. I am essentially divorced with no kids? I believe I have always had anxiety and occasional depression, I take no medications at all, I am fortunate to have family I can lean on but I also don't want to lay everything on them all the time so I go once a week and unload on a guy. Is it a cure all, no but it helps.
I've had many ups and downs especially since the ex wife, she attempted suicide and blamed me, I know it had nothing to do with me, the loss of my father to cancer was pretty rough and I still think about him all the time, I have a pretty high possibility of having an almost adult son out there I may never know the truth on, I recently did a ancestry DNA because I feel that is the best I can do at this point to someday maybe find out, last year I also had some health problems, blood pressure meds and crap were given, made it worse. I think it ended up being anxiety and stress.
I have many other things I have stuffed aside and not properly addressed and am now doing so in many ways besides counceling. I do journaling, I write down things I am grateful for, things I'm proud of myself for. I exercise, I try to eat as healthy as I can, I meditate, I have a mood light in my kitchen for days like today when the sun is not out, I try to get the best sleep I can which doesn't always happen but something I am really trying to improve, I have dropped all my social media for now with the exception of places like this, when I get home I put my phone on the cradle and leave it be as I am also trying to change my habits and be more in the moment and more productive in all aspects. Am hammering this out on a desktop right now.
For those that see my posts about my truck, this isn't just about a truck, I have spent a lot of time with my brother and other family and friends the last seven + years that I may not have if not for that, money can't buy that and I am grateful for that, it also helps, even on those days I am just sick of looking at that thing, I certainly look forward to the end result and all the social aspects and joy it will bring. My Jeep is also laying in pieces on my garage floor and I just don't have the care, time or energy right now to get that thing back on the road but it would be nice so I could go for some wind therapy in that thing.
Living alone can be rough if you spend too much time in your own head, I have a niece moving in with me this weekend and I am going to use this opportunity to be the best uncle ever, we already have a pretty good relationship, I hope I can help guide and mentor her while letting her find her own way into adulthood and a positive male figure in her life that her own father is not.
I may only know some of you but we are all human, it's okay to be vulnerable, its okay to cry, let that shit out, whatever it is that is bothering you, you are not alone.
I am here to listen if anybody ever needs to talk.